A friend told me that I should just accept you for who you are. So easy to say, but if he only knew how it feels like to be in my shoes, he would not tell me that.

 

 

Yes it is amazing how things can be lost and forgotten over night. And it struck me the most.

 

 

I stayed until the messed up nights are over, but the tables were turned.

 

 

I stayed, but you did not.

 

 

I calmed your fears but you did not calm mine.

 

 

You made your own way, now slowly drifting away though you won’t admit.

 

 

You did it again.

 

 

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I received this quote yesterday while walking along the street of Padre Faura:

 

 

“When you love someone, fight for what you feel.

 

But if the one you love loves someone else, let go.

 

Be like a soldier. Know when to fight and when to surrender”

 

 

I guess I will be like a soldier.

 

 

I now surrender.

 

I've been to many places in my life and time
I've sung a lot of songs and I've made some bad rhymes
I've acted out my life in stages with ten thousand people watching
Oh, but we're alone now and I'm singing this song for you
I know your image of me is what I hope to be, I've treated you unkindly
Oh, but Darling can't you see that, there's no one more important to me
Baby, baby, can't you see through me, 'cause we're alone now
And I'm singing this song to you, you taught me precious secrets
Of a true love withholding nothing, you came out in front
When I was hiding, yeah, yeah, but now its so much better
If my words don't quite come together, please listen to the melody
'Cause my love is in there somewhere hiding
I love you in a place where there is no space or time, I love you for my life
You are a friend of mine, and when my life is over
Remember, remember, remember when we were together
And we are alone now, and I was singing this song to you
We were alone, and I was singing, yeah singing
We were alone, and I was singing this song for you
Singing my song, I'm singing my song for you

Here we are
On earth together
It's you and I
God has made us fall in love
It's true
I've really found
Someone like you
Will it stay
The love you feel for me
Will you say
That you will be by my side
To see me through
Until my life is through
Well in my mind
We can conquer the world
In love you and I
You and I, you and I...
I'm glad
At least in my life
I've found someone
That may not be here forever
To see me through
But I found strength in you
Cause in my mind
You will stay here always
In love you and I
You and I, you and I
You and I, you and I
You and I
In my mind
We can conquer the world
In love you and I
You and I, you and I
You and I...

Angel 

Spend all your time waiting for that second chance

for a break that would make it okay

there's always some reason to feel not good enough

and it's hard at the end of the day

I need some distraction oh beautiful release

memories seep from my veins

let me be empty and weightless

and maybe I'll find some peace tonight 

in the arms of the angel fly away from here

from this dark cold hotel room

and the endlessness that you fear

you are pulled from the wreckage

of your silent reverie

you're in the arms of the angel

may you find some comfort here 

so tired of the straight line and everywhere you turn

there's vultures and thieves at your back

and the storm keeps on twisting

you keep on building the lies

that you make up for all that you lack

it don't make no difference escaping one last time

it's easier to believe

in this sweet madness oh this glorious sadness

that brings me to my knees 

in the arms of an angel fly away from here

from this dark cold hotel room

and the endlessness that you fear

you are pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie

you're in the arms of the angel

may you find some comfort here

you're in the arms of the angel

may you find some comfort here 

i feel lost. as much as i want to compose myself, and make myself believe that everything's going to be alright, i still find myself wanting to turn back the hands of time and change what has just transpired. Should i only learnt to just keep my big mouth shut, this would not have happened to us.

US.

Sorry i forgot that there's no US. And that it will forever remain only in a world that I created.

You said we would just continue to be blind if we continue to live in our world. I was not blind. And I want to believe that you too were not blind. I saw everything. And I want you to know that I tried my hardest not to mind. If I were blind, this would not have happened. We should have shared laughs last night instead of tears. But I will say it again, I was not blind. But if you want me to be blind by taking away our world, I guess I will be left without a choice. I love you. And I know you love me too. But I have to pretend and fool myself that I don't and you don't.

 

Please don't let our world die.

 

Maybe my tears will stop from falling when I learn to become selfish, when I learn to love myself above all...

¿cuál es él?  ¿cuál es usted está intentando decir?  No entiendo...  ¡Usted ha sido el freaking vago desde el primer día y estoy consiguiendo cansado de intentar comprender cada solo pensamiento que usted me está diciendo que... lo que es, no escuche más... me dé una rotura!

 

 

Time can heal all wounds, but it can never erase what is already known. I’ve known you far too deep and that is not a lie. We shared things that are incomparable, things that you seem to have already forgotten. We had those stolen glimpse of each other’s eyes like we never seem to care for the world. But now those glimpse are far to happen, cause whenever my eyes meet yours, you seem to find away to avoid it. I wanted to smile at you but you never gave me a reason to. Please don’t treat me like you never knew me. Please don’t treat me like I now am a stranger to you.

i feel so different. like i am not my old self anymore. i feel complete. perfect. happy. i changed. and it's good. i now have control that i seem to lack before. i now have reasons that seemed lost, before you happened. i feel free. i feel secured. finally i am me. and i owe it all to you. thank you.