November 19th, 2006
I underestimated you POSTED AT 10:26 AM in Pieces of me... A friend told me that I should just accept you for who you are. So easy to say, but if he only knew how it feels like to be in my shoes, he would not tell me that.
Yes it is amazing how things can be lost and forgotten over night. And it struck me the most.
I stayed until the messed up nights are over, but the tables were turned.
I stayed, but you did not.
I calmed your fears but you did not calm mine.
You made your own way, now slowly drifting away though you won’t admit.
You did it again.
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I received this quote yesterday while walking along the street of Padre Faura:
“When you love someone, fight for what you feel. But if the one you love loves someone else, let go. Be like a soldier. Know when to fight and when to surrender”
I guess I will be like a soldier.
I now surrender.
Listening to: the news on the radio 1 sumisigaw
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September 10th, 2006
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May 29th, 2006
yes it will remain forever POSTED AT 06:52 PM in Pieces of me... I've sung a lot of songs and I've made some bad rhymes I've acted out my life in stages with ten thousand people watching Oh, but we're alone now and I'm singing this song for you I know your image of me is what I hope to be, I've treated you unkindly Oh, but Darling can't you see that, there's no one more important to me Baby, baby, can't you see through me, 'cause we're alone now And I'm singing this song to you, you taught me precious secrets Of a true love withholding nothing, you came out in front When I was hiding, yeah, yeah, but now its so much better If my words don't quite come together, please listen to the melody 'Cause my love is in there somewhere hiding I love you in a place where there is no space or time, I love you for my life You are a friend of mine, and when my life is over Remember, remember, remember when we were together And we are alone now, and I was singing this song to you We were alone, and I was singing, yeah singing We were alone, and I was singing this song for you Singing my song, I'm singing my song for you Reading: les miserables - viktor hugo Listening to: stand up for love - destiny's child Watching: project runway |
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May 29th, 2006
when you sing, i listen, with a smile POSTED AT 06:50 PM in Pieces of me... On earth together It's you and I God has made us fall in love It's true I've really found Someone like you Will it stay The love you feel for me Will you say That you will be by my side To see me through Until my life is through Well in my mind We can conquer the world In love you and I You and I, you and I... I'm glad At least in my life I've found someone That may not be here forever To see me through But I found strength in you Cause in my mind You will stay here always In love you and I You and I, you and I You and I, you and I You and I In my mind We can conquer the world In love you and I You and I, you and I You and I... Reading: les miserables - viktor hugo Listening to: just like a pill - pink Watching: project runway |
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May 29th, 2006
thinking...of you POSTED AT 06:46 PM in Pieces of me... Angel Spend all your time waiting for that second chance for a break that would make it okay there's always some reason to feel not good enough and it's hard at the end of the day I need some distraction oh beautiful release memories seep from my veins let me be empty and weightless and maybe I'll find some peace tonight in the arms of the angel fly away from here from this dark cold hotel room and the endlessness that you fear you are pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie you're in the arms of the angel may you find some comfort here so tired of the straight line and everywhere you turn there's vultures and thieves at your back and the storm keeps on twisting you keep on building the lies that you make up for all that you lack it don't make no difference escaping one last time it's easier to believe in this sweet madness oh this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees in the arms of an angel fly away from here from this dark cold hotel room and the endlessness that you fear you are pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie you're in the arms of the angel may you find some comfort here you're in the arms of the angel may you find some comfort here Reading: les miserables - viktor hugo Listening to: because of you - kelly clarkson Watching: project runway Feeling: thankful |
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May 5th, 2006
escuchame por favor POSTED AT 03:48 PM in Pieces of me... i feel lost. as much as i want to compose myself, and make myself believe that everything's going to be alright, i still find myself wanting to turn back the hands of time and change what has just transpired. Should i only learnt to just keep my big mouth shut, this would not have happened to us. US. Sorry i forgot that there's no US. And that it will forever remain only in a world that I created. You said we would just continue to be blind if we continue to live in our world. I was not blind. And I want to believe that you too were not blind. I saw everything. And I want you to know that I tried my hardest not to mind. If I were blind, this would not have happened. We should have shared laughs last night instead of tears. But I will say it again, I was not blind. But if you want me to be blind by taking away our world, I guess I will be left without a choice. I love you. And I know you love me too. But I have to pretend and fool myself that I don't and you don't.
Please don't let our world die.
Listening to: Love Moves In Mysterious Ways Feeling: scared |
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April 20th, 2006
learn to read between the lines POSTED AT 02:05 PM House Rules. Really? Kelangan ba? Kelangan. Nasusunod ba? Minsan.
Reading: how to know how to Listening to: a clock ticking Watching: you |
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April 16th, 2006
onga naman. POSTED AT 02:05 PM Slept for only 3 hours or less, I had to get up early because we had a procession to attend at 4:30 early this morning. Anyway, after a long service that lasted for 2 hours which made me really groggy, we went home and ate breakfast. I wanted to ride the bike but I dozed off to a nice slumber instead.
Tomorrow will be the first day of summer classes. I am not yet enrolled though but I plan to attend my classes already. In my school, that is allowed by the way. I was not able to pre-enlist for this summer because I was planning to cross-register to Diliman but something came up so I have no choice but to enroll in Manila instead. Tomorrow is my schedule for late registration. I just hope everything will turn out well. Anyway, about my applying for a part-time job in a Call Center, I don’t think I can still pursue it. My friend is now having his training there and he told me that the training period lasts for 4 weeks and that means 8 hours of work from Mondays to Fridays. I thought part-time job there is only twice a week, I forgot about the training period. With my summer classes starting tomorrow, that would not be feasible anymore. But it’s okay. If it’s not for me, it’s not for me.
if it's not for me, it's not for me. not for me, it's not for me. if it's for me, it's for me. for me, it's for me.
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April 15th, 2006
Things happen... POSTED AT 07:53 PM I spent all day inside the house. I did not do anything productive. I did not even eat my lunch. I just had my breakfast which is pork and beans + loaf bread. My clock says 06:11 p.m. Dinner is almost served. But I do not have the enthusiasm. I do not have the appetite.
My brother recently got a bike, mountain bike that is, as a gift from our Tito living in the States. It is big. And it looks really nice. Big time. Sabi nga ni papa, “Mainit sa mata yang bike na yan”. It must have cost a lot if this bike was bought here. How I wish I got the enthusiasm to even ride it.
Aaaarggghhh! I hate this house! It’s this house, the main reason why I am like this now. It gives me no choice but to be lazy and unproductive. I feel secluded from the entire globe whenever I am in here. If we get the chance to leave this house, I would be first to pack my things with great enthusiasm. I want a bigger house. I want to have my own room. I want my house to have windows in every part so that air would flow freely inside it. I do not want any more a house that stands only third from the gate, which is by the way really small. I do not want to pass any more a small eskinita that is full of wet clothes hanging and dripping before I reach the door of our house. And above all, I do not want any more people who are so gahaman that they would set aside filial relationships for their own sake. I am sick of it.
----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Last week I went to this Call Center with the hope of getting a part-time job in there. I was thinking of working and getting paid even just for this summer than to just bum around the house and be totally unproductive (is this my favorite word?). So what happened was, on the night before, I did some revisions in my résumé. When I was about to print it, it was just then that I realized we got no more ink. So I decided to have it printed the next day on my way, instead. So the day came and I had to have my résumé printed twice on two different computer shops because the first print was in black and white and I needed a color print. I also had a hard time looking for that folder which for me looks much presentable than the usual plain folders. (the one with its front cover transparent and the other side, uh, not transparent) So when I finally found that folder, I proceeded to the building right away. But then I saw a girl, most probably an applicant as well, approaching the front desk gripping a brown envelope in her hands. Then I thought, “Mali! Brown envelope pala kelangan!” Then I rushed back to that convenience store where I got the folder to buy a brown envelope. With one folly comes another one, I was instructed by the man in the front desk to go to the 28th floor. So I waited patiently for the elevator on the right alley. And when I finally got inside, the buttons were only up to the 23rd floor! You must be kidding me! I had no choice but to just wait for the last passenger to alight the vehicle before I finally got to alight myself. So back to the Ground Floor. I approached once again the man in the front desk and asked him again.
Me: “Excuse me, I thought you said [insert name of company right about here] is located on the 28th floor? But the elevator is only up to the 23rd floor. How is that?” Man: “Sir you should ride on this side.” (pointing at his left)
Apparently, there were two alleys there. And I went to the right when I should have gone to the left. Oh crap.
So after all those mishaps I went through, finally, let me say that again, FINALLY, I arrived at the right floor at the right office.
Me: “Miss I would like to apply for a job.” Girl Employee: “Sir, just go to the guard’s desk and instructions would be given there.” Me: “Ok. Thanks.”
In front of the guard’s desk: Guard: “May I help you sir?” Me: “Yes. I would like to apply for a job” Guard: “Sir, register here, leave your résumé, and go back on April 25 for your exam.”
Huwaaatt?!?!
Yes no interview happened. I just left my résumé there and went straight home. What a bummer! Really. But I had no choice. Things happen.
By the way, I saw the other applicants’ résumés when I left mine on the table. They were not placed inside an envelope nor were they even placed inside a folder. They were just lying on the table. Just there lying. And my day was ruined completely.
Moral of the story? Assume less and expect less, it will do you better.
AND don’t believe anything you see, especially when you see that girl with the brown envelope. Listening to: ate still talking loud |
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